It has been 3 weeks since the girl I loved the most left me in the worst possible state. I was already going through a lot during that time and she just landed the final hit to break me. It was 2 am while I crumbled on the floor begging God to take this moment away from my life. At first day , I cried the hardest in my life and I had never experienced that level of emotional pain . I got severe heart palpitations and panic attacks. But then , something changed spontaneously, I couldn’t feel anything any longer. It has been 3 weeks and I still don’t feel anything . No sorrow, no grief, no joy , no anger , no hopes , no pain…. I ‘ve just lost my ability to feel . It feels like I’m alive but I’m dead inside .
To that person reading this – have you ever experienced something like this ? Or maybe know someone with similar experience ? I would like to know what’s your take on this and how you ( or that someone) made your way out of this problem/disorder or whatever it is . I would highly appreciate it if you share me some tips .
I feel this most days, numb literally. And sometimes I feel it’s bc of loneliness, particularly seeing others my age having lives, going out with friends, and just looking nice. It became a lot prominent last year. I’m talking about months and numbness and constant breakdown at night. But then I got into journaling. You don’t have to journal everyday honestly, then whenever I felt heavy or during a breakdown, I write down everything in my little book. When I’m happy, I write it down too. Somehow writing all this down just eased me a lot more and I found myself eager to write everyday after an occurrence. My journal is filled with my raw thoughts(, my anger, hate and so many things. Now anytime I feel sad or lonely I go back to my journal and read previous entries and somehow that helped me. Playing video games and reading webtoons were also a way of escape for me from constant pressure. People are different. And honestly feeling dumb doesn’t mean you are not fine. It just means you have kept a lot in. Talking to someone helps too, although I haven’t reached that stage. If you can’t talk to someone, write it down. You don’t have to think just write. Try it and tell me what happens later on. I really wish you well with your mental health
Thanks for this advice , I’ll try journaling for sure . Sometimes, I just yearn someone to be there with me irl – someone with whom I can vibe with . At this harsh time , I cannot even spend time with my school friends ( I have only one btw) because the school is closed now due to winter vacations and our syllabus is completed too . So , the next time I’ll visit my school will be the farewell day . These days , I’m sitting at home all the day and channelizing all my energy into preparing for my board exams . I’ll cry after the exams are over.
I haven’t been in a relationship before or anything close but ppl do say it takes time to get up from one. Do not rush it